My earth angels are 5 years, 3 months & 4 days old.
Today something rather incredible happened. It certainly was incredible to me. My son turned 20 late last month, well he actually celebrated his birthday in heaven, while we were forced to grieve and to also celebrate here on earth alone without him.
I have in the past gotten signs from him, which is always so comforting, though it has been awhile. Read my post about my stories about signs from lost loved ones, including dimes from heaven. I do find these a lot, but there is a lot of really cool things in the stories that I wrote that are all true from a couple of years back, so do take a peek. Sadly, my signs from above have been slower and fewer in between, which is hurtful.
This makes SO much sense. Does it to you?
I have seen the cloud formations, coins, birds, butterflies and now music.
And chills in the air on very hot days. Do you believe?
(Keep reading 😛 )
On his birthday in late May I was watching videos of sad songs on You Tube, allowing myself the chance to cry and grieve in privacy. Then later on we have our balloon release, and this year I put some of his hair into a pendant I bought with his birthstone so I can always have a literal part of him with me. It’s on right now of course. We even have a birthday cake for him. Sorry to sound bizarre, which to some people it may seem so, but I know my son doesn’t want me to cry every day. He wants me to live and live well, but to keep his memory alive in a positive, happy way. To celebrate his life, not continuously mourn his death (though it’s hard.)
I DO think it is great for us all as a family, even though my girls never got the pleasure of meeting their brother they all love him so much.
Anyhow, let’s go back to these You Tube songs and my morning today. Yes, the two do go hand in hand. One of those songs I heard particularly struck me, as I always refer to my son as my hero. It’s called, If Heaven was Needing a Hero. I will add it below, but if you have loved and lost you WILL cry.
Last year I happened upon it to, and this year I played it several times. It makes me cry, but it is healing also. I know heaven is SO very lucky to have my son as one of their angels. I know that he makes the skies a little bit brighter every day, and the stars glow a little bit more because of him.
It’s been almost 2 weeks since I heard this song, but I have been singing it since then when I am in private, and what happened this morning was quite incredible to me.
I always sleep with the TV on. I have a mind that doesn’t quit, and so I cannot fall asleep in a pitch dark room. Plus, as a child I had many odd, uneasy and even some very scary paranormal experiences at night that made me start sleeping with the light on. Then on my own as an adult I changed to the TV, as I didn’t have one in my room like many kids do nowadays.
I just like the comfort of the light and voices to help me fall asleep. When I wake up it is still always on. Today I woke up at 3 am to pee and nothing unusual. The TV was on, and I was able to fall back to sleep again. Sometimes I have a bit of trouble at that time of night, but this time I did not. Then is when the amazing part of my story occurred. When I woke for the second time.
I hadn’t yet opened my eyes, but later I found it was 5:23 am when I eventually did open them. Everyone else was fast asleep. I was awoken by the start of the song I mentioned above, If Heaven Was Needing A Hero. My eyes were closed, but something or someone had woken me right at the very beginning of the song. I laid there in disbelief, but due to my chronic dry eye and needing to use drops to open my eye lids up every day, I just decided to lie there, and I listened to the song start to finish with eyes closed.
I felt waves of immense peace through the short-lived initial shock of ‘how the heck did that happen?’ And I just melted into the song, feeling like my son was right there beside me. I wasn’t afraid I wasn’t freaked out, I was smiling. It was very strange.
So, when the song had finished, and I reached under my pillow to grab my eye drops and get my lids open, I noticed that the TV was off and yet the computer was on. The complete opposite of what it was only 2 hours earlier when I had woken to use the bathroom, which basically was impossible, but as I always say.. NOTHING is impossible. (Hence the name of my website.) But here I lie – the TV is off, the PC is on and turned to You Tube, and that song that I had been listening to weeks ago started up out of nowhere. Odd? Absolutely! Incredible? Totally! I didn’t THINK I KNEW it was my son. A sign from above. An incredible way to wake up but instead of feeling fear and sadness it was a feeling of relief, peace and joy. I knew I was not alone in that moment, and I know I am really never alone. It’s just nice to get an earthly sign from time to time to help keep faith alive.
Because of you my son, I believe in angels!
If you have an angel you’ve loved and lost pray to him or her. Ask for signs from heaven. You might just find that you get some to.
I just wanted to share this story today.
Bless you all! Hug your children and keep them close always. They are the greatest gifts we will ever receive.
Son, I cannot wait to hold you in my arms once again. I miss you! – Mama P.