It’s A Mad, Mad World: Life With Twins Continues
It’s A Mad, Mad, World
15 wks 2 days- 6-17-10
Yesterday, I took the twins out to target, and as usual people were coming up to me, asking their questions. It’s funny, because when i was pregnant, the looks I would get when I said, it was twins, was almost like I had the plague or something. They would say things like ‘Good luck with all of that’, or ‘I hope you have ALOT of help’, and they would act sort of like it was a bad thing, not a joyous occasion, like a normal pregnancy, which to be honest, scared the willies out of me, but now, they always go ‘Aww, what a blessing’ , ‘How precious’, and I hear all the time all the sudden, ‘Oh, I always wanted twins’. Before I was diseased, now I’m blessed, go figure. No I was always blessed, I just didn’t know it for awhile.
I always wanted to BE a twin, not have twins, but God had other plans, and I wouldn’t have it any other way now, I tell people. I didn’t realize until now how many people secretly wanted twins, though I do on occasion get the ‘God bless you. I always wanted twins, but after I had two close in age…forget about it’. Yeah, if you haven’t been a mother to any yet, very easy to think the idea of twins is very ‘cute’, and boom, get it all done in one shot, but actually HAVE a baby, and you will see it’s hard work, add a second soon after, and mayhem he he. The reality sets in.
Anyhow, this one women was looming over us just a bit too long for my taste. I was eating pizza in the food area, and she just was standing behind my shoulder, looking into the stroller. I was a little freaked out, honestly. I mean a normal person, takes a few glances, asks a question, maybe two, and moves on,. This lady was a bit weird, but she finally left, and I went about my day, no further thoughts.
Then I get home. I REALLY wanted my good camera to work for the graduation today. For some reason, last week, it started saying ‘memory card error’, every time I inserted a card. I tried like 10 of them, cause I take a lot of pics, so I have a dozen or so cards, and nothing made the error message go away, so the camera has been useless. Hubby took it to a camera place about 1/2 hr. away, and they put in their card, BOOM, it worked just fine. She snapped away. No way, that was just too easy I thought to myself. I wish he had bought that particular card off of her. Maybe she’s not in the business of selling, just fixing, but everything has it’s price. I just knew I wouldn’t get that lucky with a new card., on my own. I just don’t have that kind of luck.
She said mine were likely old, the cards, and dusty, and a new one obviously works just fine. It was true that all the cards have been used time and time again, and are old, and so he went out, bought 2 new cards and came home. Think either worked? Heck no, naturally. Explain that one. Next day he calls her, and she has no explanation, but he didn’t have time to go back in, and she was just gonna make him send it to Cannon anyhow. So he found his old camera, which actually was never touched, so it’s a couple years old, but not used, and bought a card, charger, and battery for it, so I’m using that one. Hopefully it works as well, but i doubt it. Guess that cheap problem is now gonna cost big on the other one. It’s never that easy, not in my world. Super bummed, cause it takes the best photos, *sigh*, but I digress.
Hubby had gone out yesterday in the early evening, and then came home. Nothing weird there, However, later on I heard a noise at the front door from upstairs, and assumed he was just getting something from the car, or running up to 7-11 for something. nothing weird. When I went downstairs, I saw the door slightly ajar. I went inside further, and saw that my husband was in the basement, he said all along, so I really started freaking out. I know, I heard someone open that front door, and they left it slightly opened, and he was the last to come in, and swares he shut it, not sure if he locked it. I was buggin out. He didn’t hear anything from where he was, but I was certain about it. He checked the house, and didn’t see anything. or anyone. I was nervous all night until bed time, and kept my kids close. You never know, It’s a mad, mad world, out there.
Someone could be coming to break in, or even kidnap a baby you just never do know, nowadays. In the midst of my panic over this, hubby told me that when he was at the store only an hour earlier, he saw a woman talking to herself. Not too unusual right? She was babbling on and on, and as he walked passed, he saw that she was talking, into an empty, infant car seat. 😯 Talk about scary and weird, but these people are out there, and between that story, and remembering the woman who hovered over me in Target, and the door thing, I was so afraid. Time for an alarm system, cause hubby is right, I can be a bit naive, there are wackos out there, and you just never know about them, what they are capable of. Really made me think. So much so, I couldn’t sleep.
I mean years back, I had some fertility woes. I have severe endometriosis, makes life very painful, but also hard for me to get pregnant on my own anymore, and so I understand the sadness of not having a baby and wanting one, at least when you want it, though eventually I got it, and then some, but I digress. I know the feelings of seeing people with babies, and being like ‘When me Lord?’, and feeling a bit sad, and maybe even a little jealous for the moment, but it just makes you want it, and fight for it more, and you move forward, but I guess not for everybody, I guess much like this crazy woman, some just snap altogether.
It happens, I mean some of the news stories in the past have freaked me out, especially while I am pregnant, but I haven’t thought much about anything, since these two have come. Been too busy to think. But I guess, that is why hubby didn’t let me put out the stork on the lawn, after any of my babies’ births, and tells me to watch it when I’m out alone with the babies. He says, You don’t know, some people may look at you, like ‘Why does she get to have two babies, and I don’t get to have any’. Now see, I never once thought of that, but you know, that could be the way some people are thinking! Scary!! Us mommies really have to become aware of everyone, and everything around us, because the world truly is a scary place.
So today is the day after, and still no explanation for the door, but if nothing else it did teach me to be completely aware of my surroundings, and be careful, about everything in general. I hope it taught hubby to make sure the door is locked at all times, because you just never know.
Anyhow, enough of that, just one more quick thing, before I go. Today is very important. It’s my daughter’s graduation day, so I really want some great pics and video, and just want the day to go smoothly for her, no screaming babies, and now that they are teething, they are screaming way more, held or not, so wish me luck there, pretty please. Prayers very much appreciated. I don’t know what I will do if they act up in there, but yesterday was plain awful, so I’m really hoping they will cooperate for today (Finger’s crossed).
Well, time to go and make sure everything is packed and ready before the little ones wake, for seemingly the day. Aside form a couple really, really, short little cat naps, and I mean like 10 minutes, they aren’t really napping much at all. I hope a schedule emerges soon, and has them both sleeping at the same time, a couple times a day for at least an hour, maybe two. This one up, one falls asleep, vise-versa, is killing me 🙁
See ya soon! xoxo
(Bumbos have been good for a few pictures anyhow….)