25 Wks. Falling Apart, SOO Unlucky! RANT!
25 Wk’s. 2 Days…A Crazy Unlucky Life!
hey there. sorry it’s been so long, I’ve been having a rough time lately. The bubs are doing really well, but me…ugh, the bad luck of life continues, and I just didn’t feel like coming here to my baby journal ‘blog posts’, to complain, but heck, if I can’t vent, then it’s not a truthful journal then is it?
I’ve been hitting the sciatica, back and bum pain lately. Hard to bend, pick things up etc, I’ve been having some migraines, that are really ruining my days, morning, noon, & night, but I don’t know that they are preggo related or something else, and also EXTREMELY disturbing to me, because i have been worried about it, since i read about it, some weeks back, is that i seem to have a muscle seperation going on, called ‘Diastasis’, and it’s something i soo feared, and am pretty shocked to have, because i noticed an odd bulge at only like 16-17 wks in my belly and ignore it, thinkin it was baby parts or something, and continuing core exercise, not realizing that was what it was and making it worse, I just didn’t know what it was.
Ughh….and i had pretty nice abs, and have had three other kids, and a loss, and never had this issue, that I ever noticed anyhow, and I was almost still flat bellied, at the point, when i noticed this, so no big stretch or large tummy to go along with it, so it seems impossible to me, for my muscles to have spread and so soon?????
Ugh! I’ve been torturing myself with online info, because when you are really into fitness (welp the last couple of years anyhow), this is about the worst thing you can imagine, body wise. it could kill the way I look postpartum, and what I can do afterwards, and I am just devastated, and praying it somehow goes to normal after the birth *knock on wood*. I’m still much smaller, at this point, then I was towards the ends of 3 other full term pregnancies, so I don’t understand this at all.
I hope it’s a fluke but doubtful. I don’t want any surgery to fix it, I can’t afford it, PLUS, a hip to hip scar to boot? NO, please Lord, I have had enough misfortune in my life. Then I had my teeth taken out, 3 of them a few weeks back, and it was awful, but I did it, got it over with so I would not have to ever go there again, (during pregnancy you can’t take much, so especially for a dentist baby like me, it was hard, but highly recommended), and what happens?? Welp, you won’t believe this!!
I go yesterday to get a post put in, and the dentist looks baffled, going ‘Did you give the oral surgeon these X-rays and papers’? , and I’m like YEAH…(its the first thing they took from me, and I saw him looking at them intently).
Welp, apparently, he took out 3 teeth when it was supposed to be two, and two out of three of those teeth were unwarranted. The only one he got right was one that I MYSELF pointed out to the oral surgeon, that really hurt, so he then checked it, and it ended up being infected, or else he got everything wrong. He pulled a tooth that was to be saved, and now I got to pay a ton of money to fix that, with a few thousand dollar implant, vs, a $588 painless post and crown?? It’s in a bad spot to…NOT fair, and he pulled a molar that wasn’t ordered to come out, and then he DID NOT pull a tooth that was supposed to come out..so now what, I got to go and get it pulled when I already did the whole ordeal and was done, or so it should have been?
I’m dismayed, and heavily shocked, at the stupidity of these Dr’s, and overall PISSED, pardon my french, but who wouldn’t be?? I can’t believe that can happen, idk how they can ‘make it right’ but I hope they do something. I’m not looking forward to ‘going there’ to get another tooth pulled anytime soon, but long term, there is no choice and it is starting to hurt very badly now….gosh!
Then on another front, my Pityriaosis Rosea is flaring up big time…not going away like its supposed to at the 8 wk mark, and I just don’t know what I can do, it just spreads and takes over, and I’m itchy all over, it’s miserable. Maybe the last time in my life to see my belly w/o any stretch marks and for two months now, I have only been able to see it with horrible red blotches all over it. what kind of luck! .14% chance of getting the dang disease, in the regular population, it’s NOT pregnancy related, and how much of my life do I honestly spend pregnant? Less then that?
Come on now, enough is enough!! Nothing that can be done either, so I wait, and wait, and wait! (Maybe I’ll get brave and post an untouched belly shot of this gross disease, so you can see what I’m dealing with, and it’s working it’s way up to my chest and neck now:( *sigh* VERY distressing.
As far as the bubs, still no definite names. not even any closer because dad still hasn’t put any input forward, so all I have still, are my own, already shared. I hope he gets on the ball. We have bought the cribs, ordered the stroller, but still have a long ways to go, with two coming, and SOON, how scary. I’d be lying if I said I was not terrified. I have close to 4 lbs of baby in me now, which seems surreal. I’m glad I’m carrying pretty darn good for now, because being humongous, like some of the online pics I have seen, would really hold me back from my normally active lifestyle, of going out with my kids almost daily, etc. I still have some energy and comfort left in me, but I’m sure that is going to slow down soon.
Oh, Mikayla felt the babies move the other day. she loved it!! The hubster felt them really moving around. You can tell it bugs him out, like holy smokes how do you deal with that all of the time, that is crazy. I just laugh and say..welp you do. it’s definitely more then I ever felt with only 1, but it’s pretty cool to feel, I truly am enjoying that part of the pregnancy. I have some soreness in the rib area, since they are head down (knock on wood), stay that way, but that will get worse as they grow.
Welp, I shall return. sorry to ramble, just having a hard time is all, OH and in my repeat fetal echo, the one I had in the city, it showed the bright spot, IS indeed on baby B’s heart still. Damn Dr. office screwed up again, while saying it was for sure gone, however, the head cardiologist, assured me, there are no other markers, and my CVS was perfect, so it doesn’t impede heart function, cause any trouble, and is completely harmless. That was a relief. They call it an Echogenic Foci, which can be an indicator of down’s, but I was already checked for that, plus, it usually accompanies other markers in those cases, so AGAIN, I wish I hadn’t read so much online, scaring myself silly, It’s very common, and nothing to freak about, but it IS there, I know I told you awhile back it was gone. Dang idiot Dr’s!!
Bye for now.. xoxo
PS- OK, i decided to share what was plauging me for nearly 3 months of my pregnancy, since it’s all long gone now. NOONE has seen this disgust until now. This is just my tummy, it was ALL OVER, and it did get darker then this and worse, but I didn’t take more pics, of the rash specifically. So gross.