17 wks +5! Hopefully, God Will See Me Through!
10/18/2009: 17 wk’s & 5 Days..Healthy Bubs!
Mood: Happy, but a bit frightened
WELP, 17 wk’s and 5 days. twins are growing strong!! Nothing crazy to report here, this entry, but last U/S appt, we saw both ‘hamburger buns’ confirming the CVS results, that they both are in fact all girl!! Now it is definitely safe to shop, and come up with names, not that the CVS isn’t like 99%, but you know me. I’ve never been real great where odds were concerned.
They were 5 oz each and 5.2 inches long, at my appt at 15 weeks and 6 days, so they are bigger now for sure, and we will find out, how much more so, on the 26th, when I’m 18 wk’s and 6 days. Still insane trying to wrap my brain around the fact that we are really having twins, but trying. it’s just very surreal, I’m glad to know in my online searching, most moms of multiples feel the same way, or have felt that way b4. I don’t know how to possibly prepare Mikayla for such huge changes, I’m just giving her all of me now, while I can, and hoping it all works out, somehow, someway. I know my dear son will be fine, as he’s older and more independent. The thought of 2 babies in my body & soon enough, in my life, is overwhelming, Exciting in some ways, scarey in others…all normal!
Anyhow, I picked up one bassinet, now just have to go and buy the other. I might get a co sleeper for those early nights, while they are little. I don’t know how hubby is going to get any sleep, before or after work, with 3 kids in a small home, and one almost teenager, or how I ever will sleep again, if he needs his rest, which he does for his work, *sigh*, but again, praying it all works out, just a lil frightened, I do enjoy my sleep as well.
My belly has grown in the past week and 1/2, but not to ginormous proportions. I’m still smaller then a lot of singleton moms at this point, however, I’m sure that will change. I hope to get very lucky with the stretch marks and twin skin thing, but only time will tell, and odds seem stacked against me. I won’t die, if I end up with those battle scars, however, I’d certainly always wanna get them fixed, that is just me, but yet I couldn’t afford to, ha, so I’ll have to hit lotto first, just hoping on that front! Just really praying for a happy and healthy outcome for all. Then I’ll know that God hasn’t forgotten about lil ‘ol me, like it has felt in the past couple decades, where life has just been so unkind. I know he’s out there and I love him, but faith is hard to keep after so much hurt and loss. Ok, I’ll shut up for now. I will be back:)