14 Weeks Along! Results are Good, but Still Have Worries!
14 Weeks & Slowly Growing!
Here I am now, at 14 wk’s, my 1st official post from the 2nd trimester (YEAH!!!…risk of miscarriage, is now decreased, yippee, & so far so good.) Belly is still tiny, (I’ll post a picture), but ever changing. The babies are both well, i can hear them on my doppler with ease, What a great investment that thing has been. The full results of the CVS test, have come back FINE, we are all clear for the vast amount of genetic diseases, that the test covers, soo very happy I had that test done. As for movement, I sware I felt some, underneath the ultrasound probe at 11 & 12 weeks, and that was a DEFINATE, despite how crazy early it seems. It made me almost jump out of my skin both times, because it was so weird feeling, and very unexpected. the probe was dug very deep into my skin and somebody down there, did NOT like it very much, and i felt something fighting back, super light but very very noticeable, to the experieced mommy. I am not counting it as consistent movement, which i will keep you posted on here in this journal, but i’m sure of it. A couple little flutter like things i’ve also sporatically noticed, but one can’t be certain on those at this point, i wanna be certain, before i count it as definative.
Anyhow, I’ve been busy buying pink, wondering about the future, about Mick, how she will deal, my son is much bigger and very independent, so I know he’ll be just fine, but she,..she is mommy’s little girl, so I am worried about this change to her world. Also worried about how I will cope at night all alone, 5 nights a week, with twins. (OH MY GOSH..EEK:), as the hubster will be working at night, and then will need to sleep himself. That scares me alittle, cause nights are hard and tiring with one baby, with help from your spouse, so I have yet to imagine what two will be like, all on my own, but hopefully it won’t be as hard as I imagine, but I just don’t know. I do need my sleep:)
Time is just passing by so quickly, I hope it slows down for alittle while. I’m not in a rush, not until I’m extremely uncomfortable anyhow, which I guess is inevitable with two. I have never been truly uncomfortable in any way with a singleton, so maybe I’ll get lucky, but I just don’t know how far this body will stretch. Last time I regret rushing the pregnancy so much, just DYING to get to the baby part, so, since we KNOW this will be my final pregnancy, no butts about that, I want to enjoy it, it’s just since it’s two, it’s not as easy for me to enjoy it, and as easy to bond, because of all of the fears, but I’m trying to overcome that, one hurdle at a time, so I don’t look back and say, ‘ Man, should have enjoyed it while it lasted’, because it’s always sad to have a child or children, and know this one is going to be the last, and ‘never again’. there is always a sad aspect to that, no matter how hard life becomes with your newborn or newborns, there is still a feeling of loss, of another pregnancy and birth experience. Don’t ask me why, it just happens! There might be a small exception to those who absolutely hate pregnancy and just want to have the baby, but most women at least enjoy some parts of it. I always have, but this, this one has just been a bit tougher, but also has been more eventful already.
Oh yeah, that reminds me, I have an appt next Tuesday (6 days from now), for my 1st of two fetal echo’s. We got to check on baby A’s heart because of the high NT result. I’ll KUP. Since it’s still small, the heart on the baby, that is, you go back around week 20 or so, but hopefully they will see all they need to at this scan, so I can relax a little. Aside from that all I am waiting for is my ‘rare disease’ blood work, which I expect to be normal, and that is that. I’m very worried about complications, health problems, disabilities and of course worse, but I’m trying to not panic myself too much. So many twins are born completely healthy, there is just so much more that can goes wrong with two vs. one.you never fully get to relax. I still cannot believe I have the two in there *shaking head*. How come after all of these weeks, that is still so freaking hard to wrap my head around:)
Anyhow, here is my picture from today. You can see the bump is growing, but still not really ‘showing’. I suspect that will happen within 2 wk’s time at this rate.
I’ll be back soon
PS- OH and they never did do the NT scan that day, I just had a regular scan because of the CVS test being performed, they said there was no point to it, but I still wish they would have checked the measurement, as I have been worried about that despite everything coming back ok, because of the other stuff like heart defects. Oh well.